鈍色に拍動めく 歌詞｜夢追翔｜Romanized・English・繁體中文

「死にたい」口癖は言い飽きた

所詮脳内麻薬の澱みだ

いつまでも奴隷で居られるかと

指先を噛む

首縊る縄の結び方なら

スマホの履歴から消しておいた

カーテン奥光差す糸から

泥に塗れた顔が

罅割れても　魂など見えなくて

明日も　笑ってやり過ごせるかな

誰にも　気付かせてなるものか

この身が朽ちても　そりゃそうだと

君だけは泣かずにいてくれるかな

頑張ったって手を取ってくれるかな

だけど　まだその時ではないから

愛したい人を振り向かせなくちゃ

願うだけなら無料だし

言い出したモン勝ちでしょ

くたばるならそれまでだってだけで

「死にたい」が口癖の脳みそが

たまには役に立ってくれないか

君が見てるかもしれないこの場を

支配するため

などと強がることは容易いが

事実永劫足らぬ人生だ

上澄み舐め尚乾く人肌

綺麗で脆く爛れた窓辺

やり直して　断ち切るまで幾度でも

指折り数え

いつか見た夢の続きを知りたくて　僕は

明日が来ることに怯えて傷んだ

けれども知ってしまったな　本当に欲しかったのは

たった一つだけだと

泥に塗れさせねば

焼け落ちよう　陽が差すような眩しさに

足跡　自分で選んだ姿が

僕らの　影にそっと寄り添って

ねぇほらわかるでしょ？　聴こえるでしょ

君が芽吹かせた絶望の奥で

鈍く鼓動が揺らめいては

そうだよ　まだ終わりじゃないよな

どうしても　見たい景色があるんだ

所詮　強者弱者だろが等しく肉と水だ

なら真っ直ぐ心臓の赴くまま

この手を握るかどうか　君次第だ

Shinitai kuchiguse wa iiakita

Shosen nounai mayaku no yodomi da

Itsu made mo dorei de irareru ka to

Yubisaki wo kamu

Kubikukuru nawa no musubikata nara

Sumaho no rireki kara keshite oita

Kaaten oku hikari sasu ito kara

Doro ni mamireta kao ga

Hibiwarete mo tamashii nado mienakute

Ashita mo waratte yarigoseeru kana

Dare ni mo kidzukasete naru mono ka

Kono mi ga kuchite mo sorya sou da to

Kimi dake wa nakazu ni ite kureru kana

Ganbatta tte te wo totte kureru kana

Dakedo mada sono toki dewa nai kara

Aishitai hito wo furimukasenakucha

Negau dake nara muryou da shi

Iidashita mon gachi desho

Kutabaru nara sore made datte dake de

Shinitai ga kuchiguse no noumiso ga

Tama ni wa yaku ni tatte kurenai ka

Kimi ga miteru kamo shirenai kono ba wo

Shihai suru tame

Nado to tsuyogaru koto wa tayasui ga

Jijitsu eigou taranu jinsei da

Uwazumi name nao kawaku hitohada

Kirei de moroku tadareta madobe

Yarinaoshite tachikiru made ikudo demo

Yubiori kazoe

Itsuka mita yume no tsuzuki wo shiritakute boku wa

Ashita ga kuru koto ni obiete itanda

Keredomo shitte shimatta na hontou ni hoshikatta no wa

Tatta hitotsu dake da to

Doro ni mamire saseneba

Yakeochiyou hi ga sasu you na mabushisa ni

Ashiato jibun de eranda sugata ga

Bokura no kage ni sotto yorisotte

Nee hora wakaru desho kikoeru desho

Kimi ga mebukaseta zetsubou no oku de

Nibuku kodou ga yurameite wa

Sou da yo mada owari ja nai yo na

Doushitemo mitai keshiki ga aru nda

Shosen tsuyomono yowamono daro ga hitoshiku niku to mizu da

Nara massugu shinzou no omomuku mama

Kono te wo nigiru ka dou ka kimi shidai da

I have grown tired of saying, "I want to die."

In the end, it is just sediment from chemicals in my brain.

How long can I keep being a slave?

I bite my fingertip.

As for how to tie a rope for hanging,

I already erased it from my phone history.

From the thread of light behind the curtain,

A face smeared with mud

May crack apart, yet no soul can be seen.

Can I laugh and get through tomorrow too?

I will not let anyone notice.

Even if this body rots, they would say, of course.

Will only you stay without crying?

Will you take my hand and say I did well?

But that time has not come yet,

So I have to make the person I want to love turn toward me.

Just wishing is free,

And the one who says it first wins, right?

If I collapse, that is all there is to it.

Could this brain, whose habit is saying "I want to die,"

Be useful once in a while?

To take control of this place

That you might be watching,

It is easy to act tough like that,

But the truth is, this life is eternally lacking.

Skin still dries after licking only the surface.

A beautiful, fragile, festering windowside.

Starting over, again and again until I cut it off,

Counting on my fingers,

Because I wanted to know the continuation of a dream I once saw, I

Was hurt by the fear that tomorrow would come.

But I have learned it: what I truly wanted

Was only one thing.

Unless I let myself be covered in mud,

I will burn down in a brightness like sunlight.

The footprints, the form I chose myself,

Nestle softly against our shadows.

Hey, you understand, don't you? You can hear it, can't you?

Deep inside the despair you caused to sprout,

A dull heartbeat flickers.

Yes, it is not over yet, is it?

There is a scene I want to see no matter what.

In the end, strong or weak, we are equally flesh and water.

Then straight ahead, as my heart directs,

Whether you take this hand or not is up to you.

「想死」這句口頭禪，我已經說膩了。

說到底，不過是腦內麻藥的沉澱。

我怎能永遠當個奴隸？

於是咬住指尖。

至於上吊繩結的打法，

我已從手機紀錄裡刪掉了。

從窗簾深處透進的光線，

照著沾滿泥土的臉。

即使龜裂，也看不見什麼靈魂。

明天我也能笑著撐過去嗎？

我絕不讓任何人察覺。

即使這副身體腐朽，他們也只會說本來如此。

只有你能不哭著陪著我嗎？

你會握住我的手，說我已經很努力了嗎？

可是，現在還不是那個時候，

我必須讓想去愛的人回頭看我。

只是祈願又不用錢，

先說出口的人就贏了吧。

若要倒下，也只是到此為止而已。

那個把「想死」掛在嘴邊的腦袋，

偶爾能不能派上用場？

為了支配這個

你也許正在看的地方。

像這樣逞強很容易，

但事實上，人生永遠都不夠。

舔著表層，肌膚仍然乾渴。

美麗、脆弱、潰爛的窗邊。

重新來過，直到斬斷為止，無論多少次，

屈指數著。

因為想知道某天所見夢境的後續，我

曾害怕明天到來而受傷。

可是我終於明白，真正想要的，

其實只有一樣。

若不讓自己沾滿泥土，

就會在像陽光般刺眼的光裡燒落。

足跡與自己選擇的模樣，

悄悄依偎在我們的影子旁。

你看，你懂吧？你聽得見吧？

在你讓它萌芽的絕望深處，

沉鈍的心跳搖曳著。

是啊，還沒有結束吧。

我有無論如何都想看的景色。

說到底，強者弱者也都同樣是肉與水。

那就筆直地，隨心臟所向，

要不要握住這隻手，就看你了。